Have you ever pondered what it would be like if there was a movie about your life? What actors and actresses would play you and all of the people in your life? Would the audience be intrigued or bored to tears? What would the the movie be called?
One thing that I wonder about my life-based movie is what songs would be played throughout the movie? And why?
There are many songs that when I listen to them, I feel that they define me, in a way, whether it be the words, the music, or just having a fond love for the song. They are my songs, you know? The kind of songs that just relate so much to your life that the writer of the song must have been secretly spying on you for inspiration. Or the kind of songs where a few lines just jump out at you form the music, and just scream in your face: "This is you."
If my life were a movie, these would be the songs released on the soundtrack. The Soundtrack Of My Life.
1.) "A Candlelit Dinner With Inamorta" - Asking Alexandria
This song is the first song I find myself listening to when I'm sad or angry. During my freshman year, this song was number one on my top twenty-five on iTunes. I had listened it nearly three hundred times all the way through! This song was my obsession. "With eyes closed, her heart breaks, and through it all, she brought this on herself." Not only does it apply to my own life, I've found it relates to other people's lives, too. Like Yuuki and January. Everyone goes something that breaks their heart, but every situation is different. For me, it was feeling heartbroken over Light, but I had brought it upon myself, because I didn't even know him. Yuuki and Oliver. January and her torturers. There's no running from the pain that all of these things put me through, so I might as well just grin and bear it. What better way to do that than having this song blasting in my ears?
2.) "Bewitched" - Blood On The Dance Floor
I just thought I'd put this one on the list, because it was (and sometimes still is) the Light song, which I mentioned in previous posts about him. Light is part of my life story, isn't he? My experience with him related to just about every line in this song, that feeling of hopelessly loving someone that is destroying you. And it concludes with that free, beautiful feeling of letting them go.
3.) "Boyfriend" - Best Coast
"I wish he was my boyfriend. I wish he was my boyfriend. I'd love him to the very end, but instead he is just a friend. I wish he was my boyfriend." I can relate to this one right now. At least it helps me realize that I'm not the only one stuck in the friend zone, dying to get out.
4.) "Chelsea Smile" - Bring Me The Horizon
I chose this song for this list, even though it doesn’t make a lot of sense. This song is about so many things that don’t really make sense put together. It is about having a secret, the end of the world, having doubts in God. You know, your typical screamo song. But in some ways, this song kind of defines some parts of me. It’s the perfect song for any mood. It’s fast, intense, catchy.
5.) “Stay With Me” – Breathe Electric
This song is easy for me to relate to, but not in a romantic relationship way. This song actually reminds me of January. It reminds me of no matter what happens to her, no matter what people say about her, no matter what people think of me, I’ll keep being her friend. I won’t leave her when everyone else does, and they already started leaving a long time ago.
6.) “Comedown” – Bush
Now, this is an amazing song. But, it doesn’t exactly relate to my life, except in one way. This song is the last song my mom listened to before she gave birth to Yuuki and I. Every time I hear it, I always feel like I’ve known it for so long. It feels so familiar. I guess that’s why.
7.) “Stratovolcano Mouth” – Chiodos
i think this song is keeping your feelings to yourself for so long, that one day you can't hold back anymore. They'll explode from your mouth. There is always something that you keep from someone, and sometimes it's so hard to keep it from them. Trust me, I know.
8.) “Fallin’ For You” – Colbie Caillat
This is one of the major Jordan songs. The words are so relatable. The song just captures the essence of falling for someone that you have just met, and wondering if you should let them know how you feel. Also known as my life.
9.) “All I Want”- A Day To Remember
“All I Want” is my favorite ADTR song, because it has so much feeling. It’s fast and intense, and the words are so angry and powerful. It can either be your “top of the world” song, or it can be your “I hate my life” song. It works either way.
10.) “Six Days” (Original Version) – DJ Shadow
This song doesn’t describe any part of my life. Actually, this song doesn’t make any sense at all, but this is what I call my “Drawing Song.” I call it this because it is very calming to listen to when you’re drawing. I always listen to this at least once a week in Drawing class. I also listen to it when I’m writing, when I’m trying to fall asleep, when I’m in an indie mood, or if I simply want to calm down. Because that’s what the song has: a calming effect. Seriously, it’s like a lullaby. If you’re an insomniac, you should look it up. *Laughs.* I’m actually being serious.
11.) “Cosmic Love” – Florence And The Machine
This is another one of my “Drawing Songs.” Indie music is just very inspirational. Also, I love the lyrics to this song. It’s very poetic, and the music is very powerful and almost, like, hypnotizing. If you’re not really a fan of indie, I would really suggest getting more into it. It’s like a dose of calm, content, power for your soul.
12.) “Lovey Love” – He Is We
Sappy and cliché, this song reminds me that even though I lose faith in love, it’s still out there waiting for me. The lyrics are practically like the sequel to this little four-line poem I wrote when I was in seventh grade, called “Chasing Love.” I think I have it memorized, actually.
“The love I want is running from me, it’s driving me crazy
I run so fast, but no matter what I do, I’ll still behind it
I can still see it up ahead, but the image is hazy
Maybe I should stop chasing love, and then someday I’ll find it”
By the way, I think this is copyrighted. Even if it’s not, it’s still my original work, so a quick note to any readers, don’t be stupid.
Anyway, I feel that “Lovey Love” would be like a sequel to this poem. The only problem is, it’s been almost four years since I wrote that poem, and my sequel still hasn’t been written. I guess… I’ll have to write it myself.
13.) “Trouble” – Never Shout Never
This song is just great. It’s been one of my favorites since eighth grade, and I still love listening to it. The words are so creative and cute. <3 Alexandria and I had a dance to go along with this song and everything. We were doing it on the band bus two weeks ago, actually.
14.) “Vanilla Twilight” – Owl City
“Vanilla Twilight” is just one of those songs, one of those songs I know every single detail about. I know all the words, I know how to play it on the guitar, I even know why Adam Young wrote it. It was my absolute favorite song when I was thirteen, and listening to it now brings back so many memories, times and reasons why I’ve listened to it in the past. Have you ever gotten that feeling when you’re listening to a song, almost like déjà vu? It’s just this odd feeling that’s almost like a memory, a faded version of a way you felt when listening to the song at some other point in your life. “Vanilla Twilight” is a major déjà vu song for my eighth grade year. It brings back the sadness I went through, the hopeless obsession with Grey. It brings back the time I sang it with him on the band bus. Thinking about how much things have changed in such a short time can kind of make you feel weirdly empty, you know?
15.) “C’mon” – Panic! At The Disco
This song is cute. The words and music just have so much hope. The combination of instruments and the two singer’s voices just make it sound so… Disney. That is the best word I can think of for a description.
16.) "Anything But Ordinary" - Avril Lavigne
"To walk within the lines would make my life so boring." This song is about wanting your life to be exciting, wanting to be different, not minding being weird, because you would rather be anything but ordinary.
17.) "Laminated E.T. Animal" - Destroy Rebuild Rebuild Until God Shows
It took me a few times listening to this one and also looking up the lyrics until I finally got what it was about. It's about me. Now, I know it's not actually about me, and I still don't really know what it's about. But, the words just really speak to me, you know? They describe me, some of my situations in life, some of my personality traits, some of the things I do. Explanation? Here it is.
"If you're looking to me, I must confess you're like an answer lost deep in loneliness. I'm just a question, I'm just full of passion. You aim and you miss. If we keep fighting who we are, we won't hit anything.
It's like I'm stabbing in the dark, it's like I feel to much, but I can't find my heart. It's like I'm stabbing in the dark, it's like I think to much and then I fall apart, like stabbing in the dark.
Eyes set on me like I'm an answer, just a question you missed, a complete disaster. Just a person, probably the worst one, loose-lipped and shoulders chipped…
Yet, still I'm here. I'm singing for you."
18.) "Same Dumb Excuse (Nothing To Lose)" - Forever The Sickest Kids
I should be brave with nothing to lose
that's how I was until the day I met you
now I'm afraid that I don't know what to do
a couple of things I really gotta tell you
Dive off a cliff, jump from a plane
all sounds easier than what I've gotta say
go for a swim with sharks in the sea
oh, sounds easier than me telling it to you straight
I've got nothing to lose
I've got nothing to lose but you
If I just say nothing, you'll never hear the truth
I can't keep using the same dumb excuse
Cause I've got nothing to lose
I've got nothing to lose..but you
To get you to laugh, get you to smile
get you to tell the world that you're on my side
Make me a star, at least in your eyes
Let's take on the world
But, first I gotta make you mine..
No, the words ain't coming out
But, tonight it's going down
cause I've got nothing to loseI
I've got nothing to lose…. but you.
My life? I'm thinking yes. Did I mention that Jordan still doesn't know yet? I'm thinking about telling him on Wednesday, November 16, 2011, unless circumstances move it to an earlier or later date. That's in three days. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
19.) "City" - Hollywood Undead
Have you ever been so mad that you wanted to burn down a city? Not that you had any intention of hurting anyone in the city, just because you wanted to watch the fire? Watch something being destroyed, so your heart isn't the only thing?
If so, listen to this song.
20.) "The One That Got Away" - Katy Perry
I like this song. Katy Perry has to be my popular music guilty pleasure. :)
21.) "Why Can't I" - Liz Phair
Ultimate sappy chick song. I love it. <3 "Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you? Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?" How many people just read that to the tune of the song? Anyway, this song makes me smile, and it makes me think about Jordan.
22.) "Undisclosed Desire" - Muse
During my drawing class, my art teacher plays music from his iPod. That is where I heard this song for the first time. Ever since I had asked him for the name of the song and downloaded it, I can't stop listening to it. It's a beautiful song. Mysterious. Calm, but with a distinct beat and and upbeat sounding tune.
23.) "Speak Up" - Show Me The Skyline
This song is amazing. It's like caffeine for your ears. It's upbeat and fast, electronic and poppy with a loud beat in the background. It has adorable lyrics. I would love to kick off my shoes and dance with someone to this song. <3
24.) "Punch-Drunk Love" - The Summer Set
I think that because we're nearing the end of the list (I'm thinking this is the last one..), the songs are slowly going for songs I relate to emotionally to songs that I just simply love. This song has absolutely nothing to do with my life, but I listen to it constantly. It is the "A Candlelit Dinner With Inamorta" of this school year. Good thing it's the kind of song that can instantly put me in a better mood. It has a cute tune, funny, creative lyrics, and The Summer Set is one of my current favorite bands.
Well, that's it.
These are my songs. Weird combination, right? Well, put together, these songs describe me. They define me. They highlight my feelings, my personality, my situations. They are the Soundtrack Of My Life.
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