Don't Play With Fire

I haven't blogged for a while, but I chose to blog today because I have something to blog about.

Today's song of the day is "Love Life" by He Is We. But don't let the title fool you, it's about getting over someone, and that's why I think it's the perfect song.

I am so proud to say this, and it's also weird to say this but, I have let go of Light. I wrote my seventh and last song for him a few days ago. One day, something came over me, and I realized that he was a huge waste of my time. Caring about someone shouldn't hurt that bad, should it? I knew that all along, but it's easy to avoid the truth. It's easy to avoid the pain. The reality. But, I faced that truth head on and waited, terrified to see what it would do to me.

So, what happened? I realized that Light isn't actually a Light at all. Actually, he is, but not the kind of Light I thought he was. I thought Light was like my ray of sunshine in my painted blue sky. But, in reality, he's the glow of a flame. Beautiful. It can keep you warm. But, it can also burn you.

So, there I was attracted to that beauty. My dreams, my hopes, the maybes, the possibilities, kept me warm. But, caught under the spell of that fire, I dove right into it, and was burned.

Sometimes, I find myself thinking about Light, almost in the same way that I used to, but with caution. But I've forced him out of my mind every time. Letting him go is definitely easier said than done. it is going to be tough, but I can be tougher.

It hurts so much to love someone who loves someone else, someone who doesn't know you, but they know how you feel. To them, you're just an afterthought. That's when you have to make them an afterthought. And that's exactly what I did.

And now, I feel free. I feel happy. I can breathe again, no longer inhaling the smoke of that fire, but the fresh air of possibilities.

Maybe I'll find another Light, and hopefully the right kind of Light. But hoping gets you nowhere, now doesn't it? So, I guess I'll just stay where I am. Happy. Free. In love with no one.

Because it feels so good to feel this way. :)

Light, it feels great to smile again. You'll always be beautiful, but you're nothing to me, just like I'm nothing to you. Thanks for the songs. <3